i know i cant write abt somethign i dont feel sincere abt. but yet its the things you say that put such apparently grand and high and mighty things down to dirt level.
its insightful in a way, perverse. i dont know.
i hate writing testimonials too cos its plain unnatural telling people how greatyou are and all that bullshit. sellout, you say.
well. i agree to a certain extent. you gotta know im not comfortable with this either.
but someone's gotta get the damned job done.
gail is jus the moneyminded practical person she always is. not everything is about cash you know. i know that you know.
and it eats me that ive gotta do this kinda shit but hey.
its task like it or not.
ultimately those big guns out there are looking for this shitload of info. and nothing you ever say against yourself however honset is gonna help.
simplicity is never accepted by this world. yes. im idealistically asking for a nice little cottage by the countryside and to paint my walls inside out without anyone caring i know you wan this to. BUT.
Its never gonna happen simply cos this world does not allow it.
those who wants it ends up working hard for it. money gets around.
but when they finally achieve the position to boss the world arnd to get this, they've lost it.
work so much you lost sight of your goals, who you are.
sometimes you just gotta think it out.
what truly matters to you. and who.